last night go downstair with dear dear.. slack above.. listening to dear story. i dunno what to say better.. all words stuck inside my throat so sick so sick i feel like crying.. dear got many thing dun understand at all... and he dun seem to try walking in to those thing. and he dun even bother to ask me why? he just think its all right if things goes his way or i do what he say.. dear never think of my feeling.. i dun think is bcuz of i didnt speak out things. i felt that is that he dun seem like want to know how i feel what i think..

feel hurts when dear ask me that question.. he ''plead/please'' i dunno which word should i use) me... he keep giving me sweet smile.. it make me kinda feel like crying my heart feel pain.

i love to see dear smile but not this way not this way.. i dunno how to describe the feeling..

don't want to talk much i am hurt again n again everyday every hour every minutes every second.. anytime anywhere...

Label: slowly i stop talking. not a single word. but just silently sitting there alone.. crying in heart is what i am doing everyday..

last night very boring so ask dear to bring me down slack.. the time already 10.30pm LOL at this time normally we staying at home preparing to sleep liao. went down dear called them ask where are them 5ppl at yishun so waited for them to come back.. LOL when they reached kai called dear. dear answer the phone 'wa so fast reach already ar?' dunno y i feel they are slow? den i goes 'huh, fast? slow lor..' maybe i feel boring without them? tats y feel that they are slow. but kai came and told us story of how he came back i think its already very fast to reach here le.. cuz got ppl challenge him on high way =.= LOL after that think of what to drink. when we wanted to walk down heard that another half of fren at below. so all of us went down. me and cassey go look at cat =D after that all of us sit together and talk cock chit chat. play some music using my phone let them listen to 'poker face by lady gaga (outer space)' edited song LOL guess only few understand what the song singing they at there laughing away.. LOL i find this song cute and funny especially the video. dunno izzit the real lady gaga or? cuz that lady gaga in the video look ugly and weird =x we sit there until 2 am if i am not wrong then before we leave we saw another unknown group sitting near a shop outside. then dear hold a beer bottle and we left LOL funny sia. too bad fren not with us.. we walk until NTUC beside and i walk pass by two person followed behind is dear. i already preparing to take my phone near to my bag zip. dear behind me turn back and ask that two idiot 'got problem?' that two idiot goes 'no problem... no problem..' wa lao i feel like laughing lor..

one thing i very not happy. while we sitting with friend they saw my bag with some logo printed on it. and they start asking question. forgotten who asked what cuz many of them asking me.

only remember its all goes like this

first is cassey i remember she ask: hey yvonne where u bought this bag one? how come got logo on it? u print it up or buy already is like this?

me: its printed on it since i bought it. (i bought it long ago u dunno meh?)

other voice comes in: dun lie la. i nv see before lor..

dunno dunno who who put dear in to link him with my bag..

i wonder is their eyes having some problem or? i bought this bag yrs ago before i know dear just that i seldom bring it out. but after we know them i got bring this bag many times before somemore this bag is the biggers sling bag i got they should have seem it before lor. =.=

even law see it before still ask wa your bag so special got logo.. kopitiam oso got ppl see it before yr plus plus plus ago liao lor..

Label: i have repeated my words for yrs.. i hate to tell lie cuz i hate ppl telling me lies. the thing i most hate is i hate ppl accuse me and say that i am telling lies...

十个男人九个坏

还有一个想做怪

十个男人九个嫖

还有一个在治疗

十个女人九个坏

剩下一个不值爱

十个女人九个贱

还有一个只爱钱

whats the different? doesnt it trying to mean that every guy and gal is all like this? =.=

when was the last time he compliment on my everything??? Too long ago i guess! or never before?

guy are all suck to me...

someone send this e-mail to me i very agree.. very very very very very agree..

cause im this type of people with this type of thinking..

reason behind people out there dun have to know.. =)

last night went up 16 toilet dear saw things that he not really surpose to see..

i dunno what should i say. cuz dear say he supect that baby is his sister one. after hearing it i keep thinking maybe its really that sister one cuz its been one yr since we last seem her. but while thinking of it. i think of what if the baby is really that sister baby later dear mum wan snatch it away from her again how? very cruel lor.. dear mum already snatch two away from them le leh. somemore dear mum dun even have any money for feeding them. =.= and those kids is belong to other de leh. dear sister is married off leh not the bro-in-law married in to their house leh. actaully dear family has no right to snatch them de lor..

what make me stress and du lan is i dun wish/want dear to have any connection with those kids or anything.

Vonne ar how many things have u repeated this stupid lame thing.. =.=

just now went through all my post. realise i repeated one sentence of words for half yr plus that sentence is ''i see the true face of fren le..'' =.= ARHH hack care la..

LOL now outside my house staircase got india ppl painting the wall.. finally lor. how many day liao now then come.. LOL at least got come..

dunno what to write liao i want go my farm now.. meow~~