a real life story that i find it really meaningful. take some time to read it =)

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(story was taken from dunno who)

Appreciate Your Blessings, think twice properly.

when i was younger, i was very rebellious. My mom had no control over me... and my friend is my mom's spy

Since then, i never had good friends in school. And worst, all my ''good friends'' were outside friends. My mom totally lost me and i lost myself too.. Because i had no one to go to when i was young, a all the ''secrets''were leaked out... i managed my own decisions... didnt share my probs with friend in school, indirectly i wasnt able to listen to their stories... so i walked the road alone... good or bad choices.. right or wrong decisions, i had to handle them.

Then i start to grow up and mature... i start to change for the better... But what was the consequences of all the ''Do it myself'',''i an handle myself'' roads i have to walk?

When i was pregnant (after i got married), i jus simply took abortion as a shortest cut because we didnt have money, we jus start to see our career bloom etc etc.

Again, without asking anybody... i didnt even take the injection to make me sleep.. so i took the procedure with my eyes wide open and saw the end product of it in a container.

What i got in the end was a lifetime of pain.

( i thought everything else was more impt than keeping baby and i could handle everything well...before the procedure )- but i was damn wrong.

What is no money to take care of baby?

A taxi uncle tell me before... a baby is not a car... u eat what, baby eat wat.. a car drink petrol... if u can afford anything else, how come not a baby when u and baby eat the same thing? He even tell me, when such a blessing come to u, god will let u find way to bring him up, no matter how. Leave it to the ones blessing u above.

After i start to clear our debts, i realise that... money isnt the reason... why i need to abort? i start to blame myself...

But it was too late...

So that is why, no matter how tough life is now... i trus i have a way to kep the baby and make sure he grow up properly...If i were to ask and at least hear someone out... i might keep the baby
(at that time)... at least a chance to... because i keep thinking that i know what is best for me since i had been doing so, i lost more than what i thought i would again.

Nothing is mroe precious than receiving a blessing from above.

And like i said... its a blessing to you.. On a hungry ghost festival, we were helping out in the ceremony.. and one of the deities(medium) same over to me and ask me what i have done bacause he sees a little boy following me...

I was shocked.. cause for the past few mths.. i could sense it too... but i didnt tell anyone...

This thing, only i know... Then, the medium told me that he is a very good boy, obedient and clever... i shoudnt have let it go.. i told him my reasons... and he told me that this is not a reason..

its an excuse.

I was even more pain inside.. cause i let go such a good boy.

Then i went to chant so tat he can go peacefully... i told him that i know my mistake, and if fate allows.. I hope he can be myson again... Thanks god fo giving me a second chance to have a baby again...

This time, im determined to keep him no matter whatever happens. I am appreciating this blessing and i would urge anyone and everyone who wants to abort or discard babies to think twice.

Abortion is not an easy way out.

Try to keep ur eyes open during the procedure, don't be a coward if you chooe to take it away. Why are u sleeping when the one inside you is suffering? Think of it before u even let the doctor take a long tool to poke u.

Is it the only way out? - Then u must be a coward in life. I admit, i was!
Baby really so obstructive in ur life? - How come u dun think that baby can bring u loads more than what u want to have?
Parent scold? - They cant be scolding u forever. The guilt will be chanting at ur ears for the longest time...
Boyfrien will lave u? Cannot get married next time? - C'mon.. my mom brough me up without getting married.. With me in her life, i am te love of her life. All the above are NOT reasons... they ARE excuses.

So find a REASON befoe u step into that clinic! Until now, i havent found my reason btw... I THOUGHT i had...

I remember, when i step down the bed, i asked.. ''i ths mine?'' (pointing at te container) The dotor say.. ''part of it...'' (cause there were 4 others before me...) I still very yaya papaya like that... but now, thinking back, the doctor and the nurses msut be shaking their heads in their hearts.

Btw, im an adopted child, brought up in a fatherless environment cause my mom is not married.

Adopted children suffer emotionally (badly) if they are not mantally prepared. It doesnt matter how well you handled the news to your adopted child. It is how mature she/he is to accept the matter and be stronger.

The baby is a gift from above to you.

Now, baby has help my marriage and settle me down. Baby has given me most strenght to excel in my career and life. And because i admit my mistake and realise my wrong doings.... i found the courage to share this with everyone... I am still repenting.. I will never stop repenting on my mastake.

It may not be a touching story.. But i hope it can save 2 life - You and Baby.