very very disappointed already

i swear i wont talk a single thing about myself with anyone anymore. i realized that none of a friend of mine is mature enough for me to talk with. i felt that they are still very childish or perhaps they are childish. now i oso realized im still so blur and make wrong friend again. why? why everytime me? am i that good to let everyone to hurt or? someone tell me pls? when den i can found my real friend who i can trust on? or i cant found it forever? but whats wrong have i done why everytime chosen me to be the one suffering this way? why must torture me? why? why me? im sick seriously sick.. dun ka jiao wei about me anymore already can? be mature dun like a auntie everytime go outside to talk things.

im very sad my heart is bleeding the cut is deep i cried because its hurts too much... ...

Label: friend are bastard cant be trusted.