last night go downstair with dear dear.. slack above.. listening to dear story. i dunno what to say better.. all words stuck inside my throat so sick so sick i feel like crying.. dear got many thing dun understand at all... and he dun seem to try walking in to those thing. and he dun even bother to ask me why? he just think its all right if things goes his way or i do what he say.. dear never think of my feeling.. i dun think is bcuz of i didnt speak out things. i felt that is that he dun seem like want to know how i feel what i think..

feel hurts when dear ask me that question.. he ''plead/please'' i dunno which word should i use) me... he keep giving me sweet smile.. it make me kinda feel like crying my heart feel pain.

i love to see dear smile but not this way not this way.. i dunno how to describe the feeling..

don't want to talk much i am hurt again n again everyday every hour every minutes every second.. anytime anywhere...

Label: slowly i stop talking. not a single word. but just silently sitting there alone.. crying in heart is what i am doing everyday..